♥ My Complicated Life

♥ Sunday, April 19, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

It's a hot sunday and i can barely wake up at 11pm

when i woke up i start to think about tomorrow

about how busy it is going to be when i step into the kitchen

as my fren peter said

kitchen work is really tough

honestly

from the day of 1st April

until now

i feel tired more than happy...

everyday when the time turns to 9 or 10pm

i would feel that my eyes r tired, itchy n sleepy

thats reminding me its time to go to bed

but i dont wish to

sometimes i wish i got more times to do my own things

to do the things i like

Today

Even it's my off day

my eyes still feel sleepy

really cant stand it

I went to Dear's house during afternoon

and we did nothing but sleep

we take a nap while outside is raining heavily

And he was sleeping right beside me

i felt so sweet that we can hug n sleep together again

I fall in love with his bedroom

His bedroom is always cool n comfortable no matter how the weather is

even outside is sun-burning n damn hot but i still can sleep comfortable in his room

feel weird right?

u guys might think im crazy

but it's true

n now i write this especially for SOMEONE

if u r not satisfied of what i wrote in my blog

please FUCK OFF okay?

i admit im not that good to speak out something useful or meaningful word

i wrote this all out because i like to report what i do everyday or what i feel

i activate my blog doesnt mean dat i must wrote something meaningful story

OKAY???

if u dont like to read my blog n u keep stepping me

please GO AWAY n do not ENTER my life story!!!

right here right now i just feel i must be responsible of what i chosen

the day i choose to be a baker

i will carry this responsibility of baker to walk on until the end of my life

i should not mention this to make it sounds like too exaggerate

i owe a people for paying me a good turn

he sponsored me to go thru this expensive baking course that my parents cant afford to pay it

until today

i do all this is just for him

what i do now is to paying back of what he help me n sponsor me

sometimes i wonder why my fren would change their decision easily

why they would easily give up n choose not to be a baker when they just mess up with a small thing

but i cannot even think like that

i must walk on, i must move foward, i must do what i have to do

i dont even got the chance to think other career

it's all about the RESPONSIBILITY

And to my girl AGAIN

i feel sorry to you because i never be a good friend of yours when u need accompanies

from the day he left u almost give me a call everyday everynight

you were yelling to me that u r so boring n nothing to do

i knew thats sounds u want me to accompany you

but at last i didnt do so because the tiredness makes me dont want to leave my bed

im really sorry my girl

and u started to think back of him

u told me u want to go back to his side just now when we r chatting in msn

i was guilty and i blame myself for not accompany you

so it makes u think more n more

but what i gotta tell you is

i will stop u from doing that

i will stop u from doing the things that would make you heartbreaked

i beg u please dont be stupid ok?

im not going to have my off day in this sunday 26/04/09

there's a big function where's we need to prepare 400 individual dessert

that sounds crazy

i think i need to be ready

27/04/09 is my brother's burfday

im planning to make him a cupcakes for his burfday present

he is addicted to cupcakes

unfortunately im working on sunday

how am i suppose to do that stuffs since im going to work on sunday????

'time not enough use'

what the fuck

there's 5 more months to go...

can i really stand tight?

can i really keep holding on?

i got no confidence to myself

never

thats all i want to 'spread' tonight

blogspot always make me feel better...

going to bed now~

n waiting for tomorrow...

hope everythings will going fine tmr

Nitez♥

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