♥ My Complicated Life

♥ Friday, September 25, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

how would you feel if your loves one die silently when u are just sleeping beside him/her

how would you feel if he/she leave u alone in this world by not letting u know

u just had a happy moment before he/she went to bed and suddenly die in the next morning...

what is the feeling??

what is the first thing that appear in your mind when u know that he/she is no longer stay by your side?

all of the times & memories that he/she going thru with you?

or hows life is going to be without him/her

during Raya season

my Chef's husband passed away on the 3rd day of Hari Raya

He died in sleeping

when my chef try to woke him up next in the morning

he dont gives any respond

she thinks that maybe his husband is very tired during these days

so she just give him to sleep more awhile

usually her husband doesnt sleep until so that late

but when their son try to woke his daddy up again

the little boy told his mommy that dad is not responding again

she came to him and saw her husbands hands are blue and hard like rock

her sister who work as nurse as well check him up after that

then they were informed that he is passed away last night

He didnt have any signs of infection and illness...

no smokes and alcohol

consider a healthy person

but he just left everyone during the happy season...

this is sad...

i was totally shocked after i get to know this...

i give my chef a call to concern about her

she cant even talk with me when we are on the phone

she just crying and crying...

how sad it is..

yesterday my hyatt frens fetch us to her house to have a visit

we also did some donation for her

because of all the transportation of her husband dead body from johor to kuantan

and sorts of funeral ceremony & hospital expenses

spend alots of her money

my fren told me she is totally broke...

when we reach her house

my chef's face looks tired and exhausted

everyone remained silent when we sit down

so she told us how it happens and how she feel...

i was grievous and feel like want to cry after hearing all of that

this is really suffering her

this is really pity... T.T

before we leave

i hugged her

this is the last time we meet with our chef

because we are going to finish our industry training

n wont be able to see her anymore after this

at the moment when i hug her

i really want to cry!!

but i dont want to make her cry when she saw i cry

so i just endure my tears

hope she can take good care with her son after this

i believe she can take this over

because she is a strong woman

in this case

i dont really see the value of a life

y god wants to grab away his life?

or this is the fate?

and we just cant do anything??

thru this sad case

family and my boy appears in my mind

i dont know what will i feel if u get to know that they left me like this

this is scary and horrible

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