♥ My Complicated Life

♥ Monday, July 12, 2010

My Complicate Life ♥

how good if im just a stranger who just used to walk by u

how good if im just a person who dont used to care everyone around me

how good if i didnt met u up and be good fren of yours for the past 7years ago

how good if i am cold hearted so that i wont bother what you risking for...

how good that was....so that i wont make myself so down cause of this....

how foolish i was

being over cared u, worried u, concern u and even cried for u

everyone laugh at me for doing this useless things ever

but u?

yeah imma bad bitch who tied all your freedom

yeah imma bad bitch who force u to stay away from him

yeah imma bad bitch who break u n him up

yeah imma bad bitch who let u cant make your own decision

yeah imma bad bitch who always criticize your boyfriend

so everyone outside thought im a bad girl who ruin your happiness...

feeling satisfied now...?

but that doesnt bother me much

i dont care how they think of me

i will only care when will u awake!

everyone asked me to leave u alone

but i didnt give up for advising u n trying hard again to wake u up

because i believe there will be a miracle!

until the day u blog out what u said and even flashed back the upset memories of mine

i wont get to bother anything related bout u anymore!

so no worries!

cause what?

i dont know HOW to be your friend anymore

cause u dont fucking know

how is it feel when i u lost someone special in your life!

i experienced it 6years ago and now it is still clearly in my mind!

she dont know!

he dont know!

they dont know!

everyone dont know how is it FEEL!

so actually what kind of your friend that u wish is

watching u walking to the traps and dangerous path that will make u fall down

and never be there to lend u a hand or even blocking u from being get hurt... RIGHT?

i guess that's what u wish for

so okay, i'll shut my fucking mouth up and never think everything of u

i will learn to be cold hearted.

i SACRIFICE a friend for my BOY?

funny.

my boy dont even know ANYTHING about him

my boy didnt ask me 2 take u away from your bf so u wont get hurt

my boy didnt stalk him for your own good

my boy doesnt even wanna care about anything of me n u!

howcome i want to sacrifice u?

what idiot things that u heard from which bitch and then u try to transmit for me

can u explain this nonsense idiot things for me?

if not, why u suddenly want to pick all the old bills and make conflict?

i knew i was terribly wrong during that time

and all of u forgiven me and let it slip away

whats the point u want me to flashed back the upset memories?

yea honestly i cried because of thinking back all the past memories!

BUT im not crying to get everyone's sympathy!

it's because u never think how would i feel when u recall all these memories for me!

speaking of u wont choose neither me or him...

n u tell me u will only stay all for your own

the why u wanna shoot me like this....?

yea u said u wont choose him

then why the hell u was so cared about how deep i know michael?

if u wont choose him anymore, u wont mind what i think of him

ADMIT it!

dont stay away from him cause what i think of him

u still care about him then just go!

no need to put the gun hole on me n shoot like im a bad girl!

i understand that i dont have the right to block u for loving someone

but sorry

once i knew someone's gonna take your world down

i wont let u have any chance to take the risk

i dont fucking care how he less accompany u or lied u or how much u spend on him

thats non of my business

but he did something that every girl would not afford to risk it

he will crash u down no matter in your career or your future or even your health

the point is your parents dont even know about this except for us

cus if your parents know what is behind this they will kill u for sure!

thats why i always stay by u n try to wake u up because i know

besides us there's no one u can share this sensitive things with

but what i thought all was wrong

u said i was wrong for mayb always advise u to break up with him

i shud not force u cus i know thats your freedom to choose

but when u disagree what im talking about your boy

and trying to said how good he was

i was completely disappointed on u...

Yes u! DISAPPOINTED on u...

i believe there will be second time he treat u with the same way

and i wont advise u for the second time already since u were so enjoy!

peeps

what is the different between a good and bad person...?

if u all consider that i was a bad person for what i've done all these far

then fine, i rather learn to be cruel n be a BAD person

Andy said - what for u cried? what for u wasting your time n your tears?

he said i shud not cry since there's other victims who are terribly miserable than me

this is just a small case n u shouldn't cried, he said

to be honest

u r making me slowly, and slowly hide away from u

yea u've shout : all of u r making me HURT!

so okay, thats the end

i wont be the one who always used to care

i'll be cruel, i'll be cold hearted

and u just LEAVE ME ALONE from NOW

i dont want to see u anymore...

because

I DONT KNOW HOW TO BE YOUR FRIEND.

mayb only for amber and yeet mei

and your so called opera and singing fellars

THESE ARE YOUR FRIEND!

and im NOT!

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